Revelation
Jun. 20th, 2006 04:18 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
apparentparadoxI was telling a friend the other day that I believe that my nieces & nephews like Mark better than they like me. My friend rushed with the typical "Oh, I'm sure that's not true". I told him that I'm pretty sure it is, and that it's OK because I believe that they like me enough. Like/love isn't a way to measure one's worth. It's sufficient to just get above the passing grade.
The revelation to me at the time was that I actually meant what I said, and that I actually wasn't bothered by believing that Mark is better liked than me. I didn't feel like I was a worse person, or that I should necessarily do something to change things.
Maybe I'm growing up emotionally. Maybe some day my father will as well. (Oops, I think that I just slipped back a bit.)
The revelation to me at the time was that I actually meant what I said, and that I actually wasn't bothered by believing that Mark is better liked than me. I didn't feel like I was a worse person, or that I should necessarily do something to change things.
Maybe I'm growing up emotionally. Maybe some day my father will as well. (Oops, I think that I just slipped back a bit.)