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apparentparadoxI stopped by the Anne Uebelacker dance last night briefly. I didn't stay long, partly because I wanted to get home to see Mark (who had been gone a week), but partly because I just don't feel comfortable in crowds where I don't know a lot of people.
But, that puts me in a weird Catch-22 situation: I don't stay long at events because I feel uncomfortable if I don't know lots of people, but then I don't meet people because I'm not there very long.
At least with square dancing, I can just fill in a square or put my hand up & let someone else join me. As long as I'm dancing every tip, then I'm fine -- in between tips, I just stand by myself against the wall. It's when I don't get in a tip (or need to sit one out to rest), that all the "I don't feel comfortable here" stuff really sets in.
Sometimes it's good to push against limits, and sometimes it just hurts.
But, that puts me in a weird Catch-22 situation: I don't stay long at events because I feel uncomfortable if I don't know lots of people, but then I don't meet people because I'm not there very long.
At least with square dancing, I can just fill in a square or put my hand up & let someone else join me. As long as I'm dancing every tip, then I'm fine -- in between tips, I just stand by myself against the wall. It's when I don't get in a tip (or need to sit one out to rest), that all the "I don't feel comfortable here" stuff really sets in.
Sometimes it's good to push against limits, and sometimes it just hurts.