Making Love
Mar. 3rd, 2006 10:48 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
apparentparadoxI just finished watching the DVD of "Making Love". This movie has a lot of significance to me. When it came out in 1982, I was still in denial about my attraction to other men. I was still dating my girlfriend from college (long distance now, since she still had one more year of college to go).
As I sat in the movie theater, all I could think was that someone had come back from 15 years in the future with the story of my life, and made a movie just for me. OK, I wasn't a doctor, but Zach is so much like me, and Sara is *so* Claire. We would have been a great couple, and been really good for each other. But, like the characters in the movie, it would have all fallen apart. I realized, watching that movie, that I couldn't do that to Sara -- that I couldn't put her through the pain that Claire felt.
I sometimes wonder what my life would be like if I hadn't seen that movie. I'm pretty sure that I would have married Sara. I'm also pretty sure that it would have ended poorly, with both of us hurting.
"Making Love" may not be fine art, but it did change my life. And really, who can ask anything more from any piece of art?
As I sat in the movie theater, all I could think was that someone had come back from 15 years in the future with the story of my life, and made a movie just for me. OK, I wasn't a doctor, but Zach is so much like me, and Sara is *so* Claire. We would have been a great couple, and been really good for each other. But, like the characters in the movie, it would have all fallen apart. I realized, watching that movie, that I couldn't do that to Sara -- that I couldn't put her through the pain that Claire felt.
I sometimes wonder what my life would be like if I hadn't seen that movie. I'm pretty sure that I would have married Sara. I'm also pretty sure that it would have ended poorly, with both of us hurting.
"Making Love" may not be fine art, but it did change my life. And really, who can ask anything more from any piece of art?